Hard-boiled Wonderland and the End Of The World

My favorite book as a Haruki Murakami's fan.

There are so many things to say about this book. Orwell and Kafka influence, imaginative worlds with fantasy creatures, philosophy from the characters that make readers think. Two parallel worlds, two stories, two "I" characters, one after another, bring different experiences, different feelings... Murakami's words, as usual, touched me in the brain and the heart, stirred up the quietness of all the sleeping thoughts in my mind, reminded me that I once, had those dreams and expectations:

"Once, when I was younger, I thought I could be someone else. I'd move to Casablanca, open a bar, and I'd meet Ingrid Bergman. Or more realistically - whether actually more realistic or not - I'd tune in on a better life, something more suited to my true self. Toward that end, I had to undergo training. I read The Greening of America, and I saw Easy Rider three times. But like a boat with a twisted rudder, I kept coming back to the same place. I wasn't anywhere. I was myself, waiting on the shore for me to return."

What keeps me from constantly going back to Murakami's novels is that, I don't need answers though there are way too many questions left after reading them. Somehow I'm always left saddened, empty but still satisfied with the way everything ends. Like things have to be that way. "Everything in its right place". Even though sometimes they are stuck in their own boring circle, they don't seem to have the need to change it.

I don't seek answers, though everything seems way over-mysterious in this novel. I'm just simply enjoying beautiful images created by the most beautiful words, the giant library of culture, book and music references, the feeling of connection to my own experience.

What is the purpose of my existence?

“Listen. I may not be much, but I'm all I've got. Maybe you need a magnifying glass to find my face in my high school graduation photo. Maybe I haven't got any family or friends. Yes, yes, I know all that. But, strange as it might seem, I'm not entirely dissatisfied with life... I feel pretty much at home with what I am. I don't want to go anywhere. I don't want any unicorns behind fences.”